Showing posts from June, 2017

Sharing Old Thoughts | A Reflection From 2016

I wrote something to myself last April, and well, it seems I've been having existential questions for at least that long.
April 10, 2016: It’s weird to think I’m ‘starting over’ before I’ve even hit my 20s, but I am.
It’s not exactly the major changes which define this process – but gradually shifting my mindset in hope that the last year of tumultuous relationships won’t repeat itself, at least not in the same way. Existing and going through the motions is not a way to live, and I’ve been told that ever since I hit high school – but when I sank low enough, reasoning wasn’t enough. I was fighting to pretend to be happy and optimistic about my future, when I was really falling to pieces inside. I defined myself by my grades and my refusal to open up, and as someone who rarely lets the truth spill from her, pretending to be someone I’m not ended up doing a lot more harm than good.
When I lost someone close to me this year, I ended up in a church saying goodbye and realized the most im…

On Speaking vs. Writing | A Personal Post

I'm alive and blogging!

I chose the opposite forum I usually would to share why I write. Why? Because I need to learn how to speak too.